I've been procrastinating, as always. But this time, I intend to see it through. I've been thinking the past couple days on what kind of resolutions and goals I want to set for myself for the new year. I want to be more genuine, especially on my blog - so I'm going to revamp this blog site to become an online journal. I'll be writing as if it's a diary or real journal. I would normally keep a physical journal but I am a stickler for pretty and my hand tends to cramp when I write too much - but it shouldn't be a problem if I'm just typing on a blog. It's just an odd day to start this, but better late than never... let's begin !
Today was an interesting day. We went to the movies last night and I stayed up a little later than normal, safe to say that I woke up extremely tired. My arm doesn't hurt as much as it has the past couple days but I am still suffering the side effects of recovering from a cold. I knew today would be the day that Weekly Idol's episode with Big Bang would be on and of course, I spend my entire day waiting for english subs and watching videos of them on YouTube - I'll be really sad when they go on hiatus for their mandatory military service.
Work was boring - as I always say. Nothing excites me about the job function I'm doing - it's all repetitive and I'm just itching for something new. Since we're moving soon, I feel like it's time for me to move onto a different job as well. I'm in a rut.. what do I do? I still don't know what my dream job is and I don't want to keep bouncing around from one job to another without having a clear direction of where I'm going. Is this what being an adult is all about? Wondering if I'm making the right choices? Maybe that's why on Food Network and other shows or channels there's always someone that's older that has the story along the lines of "I had a boring office job and one day I thought to myself, why not follow my dreams? So I quit and started my own (blah blah)" -- I guess that's what people call a midlife crisis or whatever, but it's sad that they don't realize it earlier. Sometimes I wonder if that's going to be me... I'll grow older have office jobs but never really feel fulfilled...
I want to start my own etsy shop, but what will I sell? I make mediocre handmade notebooks and I don't know what else I can make. I really want to learn calligraphy but hobbies get expensive and time consuming. I feel like I don't ever have enough time....
Another one of my resolutions is to finish what I started or follow through with my plans. James got me a new camera for Christmas and I was doing really well vlogging our California trip but I just stopped vlogging.... I want to at least keep posting videos at least once a week and also do a creative video once a week but again .. it's a lot of time on top of a full time job. *sigh* what do I do? I feel like I'm already having a quarter-life crisis...
Anyways, since before Thanksgiving I was giving up dairy - at least in the process of becoming dairy free.... But when John came, everything got thrown out of the window. I need to learn self control and need to focus more on improving myself. I used to go to the gym so often, at least 5x a week but I haven't been to the gym since the middle of December. I don't know how I'm going to fair when we start going back. We had Papa John's pizza for dinner - saves me the time and work to make lunch.
We move in a couple of weeks. I am excited to be moving to a new complex. Our apartment is fancier than what we're living in now but it's further - which I'm not excited about. It's going to be a longer drive to work and I won't be able to go to our Super Target anymore :(
I'm already getting tired. I desperately need to catch up on my sleep. Another goal - drink more water. Hopefully I can keep track of everything I want to do - which is the goal of this blog, to keep me accountable.
